GOD IS LOVE
During a revival when I was about 12 years old I accepted The Lord as my personal Savior. I was so excited, but as we all know the devil took hold of me. I went to church every Sunday with my family. I thought I was a pretty good child.
I went off to college a month after I found my father laying in a pool of blood in our barn where he had tried to commit suicide. I was devastated. I was the baby and the only girl. This was my daddy. I loved him and I knew he loved me. Let’s just say college, I was not a good girl.
I came home after a year and decided to go to school, work and stay at home. A few years later I met my husband. We graduated together from high school but we didn’t talk then. We got married in 1996 and in 1999 we had a beautiful baby boy. I went to church, maybe not every Sunday. Once my son was born, I really tried to be there every Sunday, because that’s how I was raised.
I loved The Lord. I thought I was a good person. But now I know I wasn’t doing what The Lord wanted me to do. It took many years, many ups and downs in our marriage before I found out what it meant to Love JESUS and to follow HIM daily.
I had been asked for many years to join a Bible Study in my area that met on Mondays during the school year. I always said I was too busy, working, child, mother, etc.
I finally started in 2011 but only after I was diagnosed with Rheumatoid Arthritis at age 37. Bible study was great. I was reading the bible daily and learning more about The Lord. It came at the season in my life where I needed to grow closer to God.
It hit me, that even though I hadn’t been showing Him how much I loved Him since age 12, HE WAS ALWAYS LOVING ME, IN THE GOOD AND THE BAD.
Last July the doctor took me out of work due to my health. I have tried to make a point to study the Bible more and have my JESUS TIME. But it’s still hard. Even when I don’t work. It seems something is always pulling at me. I always thought well if I didn’t have to work, or do this or that I would spend so much more time with God.
But I’m so happy to know that GOD LOVES ME and HE IS ALWAYS THERE FOR ME even when I think I can’t get up 30 minutes earlier to study and spend time with HIM.
If I didn’t have the time for my family, or to wash clothes, I’m sure they would be mad or get upset with me. But The Lord never gets mad with me. He is always there.
I KNOW I DO NOT DESERVE IT, BUT I’M SO. GRATEFUL TO HAVE HIM AS MY TRUE LOVE.
HIS LOVE ENDURES FOREVER!!!