Today I am linking up with Kate Motaung on her blog Heading Home. She is doing a one year anniversary to her book – letters to grief. I find it touching because 9 years ago today I lost some grief. Below is my letter.
I remember it as if it was yesterday. The day I lost grief. It was hard. It was 9 years ago today. It was even harder at Christmas.
But today I have decided to do something different. I am writing a letter to you. I’m deciding that I’m going to celebrate the grief and not walk around upset in the grief all day.
I’m not going to sit here and pretend the day my father died was not tough. It was more than tough. Deep down though, I knew he no longer had to wear the oxygen. He no longer had to worry about health problems.. He had his new body and was happy.
So even though I tried to be happy, grief would sneak in. Every year it seems I let this day take my heart and take my day. This year I have decided to look at grief a total different way.
We have all seen grief either in other people’s families or our own family. The grief may have come because of someone else’s doing or it may have come because of a sickness. Whether it comes as a shock or if we have known it was coming, both are hard.
- We never like to have to grieve.
- We never like to have to lose someone we love.
- We never want to be without them.
God made us and when He made us we were not going to live forever on this earth. God made us to die eventually. Some may die sooner than we would like, but we all not it will happen. At a birth we all are happy and full of happy tears, but at a death we are sad and full of grief tears. But during the grief, we do not need to let it take hold. We do not need to let the grief control everything.
Grieving is good to let it out. I’m going to rejoice today instead of grieve. I’m going to be happy my father is not still here suffering. I know I can’t see or talk to him but I have Faith & Hope I will one day. That’s what I need to work on now.
Today, I’m rejoicing. Today, I’m happy. Today is the beginning of letting grief not have a hold on me.
Grief is not going to have a hold on me.
Grief is not going to stay with me today.
Grief is good, but grief is not for today!
Acts 20:37-38 New International Version (NIV)
37 They all wept as they embraced him and kissed him. 38 What grieved them most was his statement that they would never see his face again. Then they accompanied him to the ship.