Just because I came from a good Christian home, my life should be great?
Just because I married a good man, my life should be great?
Just because I have a great child, my life should be great?
Just because I’m not able to work, my life should be great?
So why do I feel so depressed and discouraged at times?
These questions have been running through my mind lately. I know I should be happy but I’m not sure what is wrong. I have no want to about me. I have no reason to get ready, put on clothes and makeup. I just have no get up and go.
Now, I have not thought about taking my life, even though someone reading this may have. But what are we supposed to feel and do when are feelings are taking over!
Today I decided to do something different. Instead of staying in the house on these gloomy cold days, I decided to do something a friend of mine wrote about. I decided to have a “staycation (1)”.
I decided to get out of the house and change my scenery. I did not want to do something of course that costed money, so I decided to visit my local library. The local library was quiet but yet there was people moving around. I found me a quiet table. I pulled out my computer. Then, I decided to do things that I knew I needed to catch up.
While sitting in the library I decided to write this post. I was sure I am not the only one that struggles at times. So as I result this post was birthed.
But on the way to the library, I was listening to the local Christian radio station. They were interviewing a man and woman. The woman said something that I had heard thousands of time, but this time it about caused me to jump out of my car. In an around about way they said when we look to things and people to fill us we will stay on empty. The only thing or person that can fill us is God.
There have been days I have tried to let so many other things fill me up.
- Social Media
- Online Bible Studies
- My Home
Things of the world can make our tanks spring a leak and really lose our fuel. The only true way my tank can be filled is GOD!
I do turn to Him for prayer. I do read my Bible almost every morning. I do listen to Christian music.
But do I really sit down and just spend time with Him? Do I really let Him fill me up? Do I let him put the fuel I need in me or do I decide what I need?
But if I was getting filled up, why do I feel so empty. Isn’t it bad for me to admit that I feel empty? Should I share this with others? What are people going to think of me?
Have I been doing something wrong? I have so many hours in the day at home by myself now and I thought I was getting filled up.
I’m sure I’m not the only one feeling this way – or at least I hope I’m not. I decided to study the Book of Job. He had so much to happen to him, but seemed to never turn away from God. As I’m reading and studying, I’m going to pass along some knowledge and hopefully some of God’s fuel to help you as well.
As I close today, I just ask for prayer. I ask you to pray for people who are in such need of being filled up with God. You may not know who they are. They may be working right beside you, checking out in the grocery line behind you, or they may be a family member. God knows who needs Him. I just pray that He helps me see others that need a smile or something that I receive from God to help fill them. Let’s try to help God fill people with His fuel. Amen!