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I remember it like it was yesterday. I was in 8th grade and was at cheerleading camp. The people in charge of camp made an announcement that all captains would meet after this session. On the inside I was smiling, but on the outside I was not. It was time to go to the meeting. I knew who was going but two of the other “veteran cheerleaders”did not. They asked me, “I wonder who is the captain.” I said as humbly as possible, “I’m the Captain. Ms. Smith told me before we left for camp and I wasn’t suppose to tell anyone.” In unison the veterans said, “What? That’s wrong. You can’t be the captain!” They ran off to find Ms. Smith and I was left standing there #Uninvited even though I had been invited.
That moment in time is embedded in my brain. From that day forth, I always knew I wasn’t capable of being captain or leader of anything. If I was, why would my “friends” said I couldn’t be captain.
I was the captain on paper and at that camp, but in those veterans minds it was just for a few short days. This would not be forever or at least our eight grade year. I tried not to be overpowering. I talked with Ms. Smith and she told me to just enjoy these days and do what I was supposed to do – everything would be straightened out after we got back from camp.
Well in my mind, that meant, she would explain to everyone why she chose me and I would remain the captain the rest of the eighth grade year. But evidently the “veteran cheerleaders” thought there should be a vote from the cheerleaders not the lady in charge and when we returned back to practice after camp we had a vote.
I thought, this will all be straightened out now during the vote and I would win. But evidently because I kept a secret from my friends I was considered a traitor, so the “veteran cheerleaders” turned everyone against me.
I was told to keep it a secret by my leader, but my friends didn’t think I should.
My parents raised me to be respective of adults and to listen, but my friends didn’t think I should.
So I did what I thought was right, but my friends would hold against me.
As I assume you have figured out by now, I was not voted as captain. My heart was broken.
What had I done wrong?
They were right, I can’t be captain. I’m not good enough.
What was that leader thinking to choose me?
I accepted defeat! I smiled and congratulated the new captains. I was at every practice and every game. I supported everyone and was happy – at least on the outside. But on the inside I was being defeated and it would be a defeat that would stay with me for many many many years!!!
In an upcoming post, I will explain further, how this defeat in eighth grade of being #Uninvited has stayed in my heart for may years. I will share how this rejection stole the best from me by reinforcing in me the worst of who I am.
Even when you’re overlooked by others, you are handpicked by God. In her new book, Uninvited, New York Times bestselling author Lysa TerKeurst will help you live like you really believe that truth! You can get your copy by going to www.uninvitedbook.com.