I woke up one morning and I was 44. I had been married for 20 years and have a son who is 17 and will be going off to college in a year and a half. I do not work because of a health condition, Rheumatoid Arthritis. The hopes and dreams I had at one time, I can’t even remember. Living a life I love, how could I do that with all these other obstacles? The last thing I remember when I went to bed was being 16, in high school and I could not wait until I graduated. I had hopes and dreams and I was DETERMINED!
WHERE DID MY LIFE GO?
Have any of you ever woke up and felt this way? Do you walk around daily thinking this I my life, it can never change? Do you wonder is this what I dreamed and hoped for?
Life happens. Life keeps going. Life doesn’t stop. If it does, it’s not called life anymore. It’s called death.
What will they say at my funeral? What will people say when I’m gone? What will my son say? What will my family say?
I’m sure someone told me in high school not to wish my life away. I’m also sure someone told me when I graduated life would never be the same. What did I think or say to that? “Okay, well thanks, got to go.”
I’m sure or at least I hope, someone reading this may be thinking these same things or you have thought these things. Since I have been out of work, these things have crossed my mind thousands of times. Now, it may had been different if I had been out of work and was rich, or not sick. But I really wonder if that’s true as well.
God created me for a purpose!
for it is God who works in you to will and to act in order to fulfill his good purpose. Philippians 2:13 (NIV)
God knew me before I was created!
God says I’m wonderfully made!
God says I’m His child!
So you are no longer a slave, but God’s child; and since you are his child, God has made you also an heir. Galatians 4:7 (NIV)
You may or may not have heard these verses all your life or in the last few years but I have heard these all my life. I thought I believed them, I thought I lived them, I thought……
Well, maybe I thought but did I make them a part of my life!
Doing Proverbs 31 Online Bible Studies (P31 OBS) and being a part of iBloom have really impacted my life in the last few years. (To learn more about each of them click on the name.) The P31 OBS has helped grow my spiritual life as well as introduce me to some ladies from all over the United States and world who have and are making an impact on my life. The iBloom community has also helped me grow my spiritual life, but has also made me realize that “I WANT TO LIVE A LIFE I LOVE!”
Before you judge me, I’m not saying I don’t love my family. I’m saying do I really love the life I’m living, the day-to-day routine I have. I may be different from some of you. You may work a full-time job, you may be retired, or you may be a SAHM.
BUT DON’T WE ALL WANT THE SAME THING!
TO LIVE A LIFE WE LOVE!
I have envisioned through a 2 day Retreat back in December, 2016 with iBloom what my life will be like on December 31, 2017. Am I suppose to stop dreaming like I did as a little girl just because I’m 44?
I’ve asked myself many questions to vision my 2017 year. What am I most proud of? What have I accomplished? How do I feel? While asking these questions, I’m also seeking God’s direction.
In many of my previous years of life, I lived life day-to-day by my family, the world, and what needed to happen that day. I DID NOT LIVE MY LIFE SEEKING GOD’S DIRECTION!
Yes, I said it. I’m being honest. I’ve lived many many many years like that. And the worst thing about it is I can’t change it. SO GUESS WHAT! MOVE ON!
I’m deciding every day that I’m living differently. I’m seeking God more.
“Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Matthew 11:28 NIV)
Do I wish I had done this many many many years before? Well of course I do. But again, that’s in the past and I can’t change it. SO GUESS WHAT! MOVE ON!
Here comes another honest statement. IT’S HARD TO FORGET ALL THE BAD I’VE DONE OR BAD THINGS PEOPLE HAVE SAID TO ME!
Have you done bad things in your past? Have people, family, or friends said bad things to you? Were you told you were not good at something? Have you been told you sucked at something? Have you been told you are too country?
If you haven’t you are very luck, but I’m sure the majority of us can relate to one or more of those questions. I can relate to almost all of them.
“Therefore, my friends, I want you to know that through Jesus the forgiveness of sins is proclaimed to you. Acts 13:38 (NIV)
I’m sure you are tired of reading now and you want to know, what is the purpose of this.
We all face Roadblocks. We all face Challenges. We all face Problems. It’s inevitable. BUT WE CAN MOVE ON!
But I have learned, YOU CAN’T MOVE ON ALONE! YOU MUST HAVE JESUS WITH YOU.
As a matter of fact as I finish this today, (more to come in the following days), Jesus has a question for you to ponder?
Jesus stopped and called them. he asked. Matthew 20:32 (NIV)
If you need to start learning how TO LIVE A LIFE YOU LOVE, please join me on the journey. And to make it easy for you, these to trainings below which are videos you can watch or listen to on your way to work are FREE!!! What do you have to lose but time? And guess what? I’m sure you have lost time already today on Social Media or in the World.
5 Things Sabotaging Your Success
Unlock Your Business Breakthrough – You do not have to be in business to do this. You can use some of this information if you are a SAHM, retired, or sick like me.
I’ll be back with the rest of the story.